Only You
I want my body to ache when I’m apart from you. Let me not be able to function properly as a result of the distance. I want to weep for the tragedies that are present in the news and not embrace it as reality that cannot be changed. I do not want to set you aside for the sake of having a good time. Do not let my pleasure be found in the things that break your heart, but let me rejoice only in what makes you smile.
I want my heart to break over our self-destructive nature and what it’s done to our lives. Let me become furious over injustice and moved to do something about the pain inflicted to the innocent. I want other people’s burdens to become my burdens, that I may help them carry their load to you. I want to kneel at your feet and not be ashamed. I want to pursue you and not what will make me happy. My happiness on this earth is made up of nothing but fleeting feelings.
Let me never be content. Let me struggle that I may experience you the most in the darkest of days. I don’t want to have enough to where I’m comfortable. I’m prone to forget about you daily. Let me remember in the small things. Overwhelm me at the most inopportune times with your love that I can’t help but sob at how relentless you are. Do not ever let me be okay with having you as a part of my life.
If I lose sight of the meaning of my existence, do not hesitate to break me. I need that, more often than not. Relentlessly love me so I know how to do the same. When I don’t have the strength let me beg for one more ounce of it for the sake of loving the cynic with everything I am. Do not let me be a band-aid, but offer an antidote. I want to experience the pain of a heart break for your people. That through it all I would decrease and you would increase.
